Honestly, I don't blog much, particularly because I don't have enough time to think about what my next post would be. I could've released one of my drafts from years past, but one thing remained: the passion for blogging was simply not there, especially with all the work I'm doing for years. Coming here again made me realize myself: I don't have the energy required to think what kind of topic I'd write about.
Currently, my life isn't at my best, but I don't want to write a vent about that at the risk of giving away too much of my life. If it's a vent about how bad a particular instance did (like with my IT Ministry a decade ago), that's fine, but I can't help myself missing the relevancy window and eventually not doing it because it's too obsolete to talk about it. This made sense with what happened to the same IT Ministry years ago which required to register a site to its own system in order to not face the site being blocked, and it ended up killing itself at the end that they scrapped it because there's no way a legitimate site would obey to such a dogwater system. Now that it happened and things got scrapped, I no longer have the need to talk about it and everything about it just vanished into thin air, just like most of the thoughts I would have about a topic.
Basically, the combination of the aformentioned things were what drove me off from blogging and ended up doing all the venting on Twitter, at least that's what people call it before some guy bought the place, put his sink in, made questionable decisions, and turned it into the failed business investment that boosts some of the worst people on this very Earth, and people had to endure more grifting from these bastards than before. Thank God we now have Bluesky, although I still am on that "bird app", salvaging what's left of it. To be fair, though, I don't tweet much.
And then there's me against relevancy. It's basically myself against thoughts of "being relevant" that both "fear of not being relevant" and "people not even able to look at your content" co-exist. I faced this a lot of times in the past although it had a little to no effect, but as time went on, this became more prevalent, and the catalyst was during the Cartober 2024 I was doing not long ago this year, more specifically on Instagram. Thoughts of "being no longer relevant" came when some of my posts began to not receive any sort of interactions beforehand (apart from one or two likes on some posts later down the road), and that I couldn't able to grow any more audience, stuck at 49 followers. That said, as Day 21 went, I stopped posting because it was no longer worth it (funnily enough, I actually have 50 followers after I stopped), and by this point, this could have an impact on whatever I do, especially blogging, doesn't help that I'm living in a small niche of a niche and I don't interact directly to people as much.
So, why am I returning here to this place? If I had no topic to tackle at the moment and had to face a risk that nobody reads my blog, what justified me to bother with making this blog?
On a random whim before I decided to write this blog, I did this little thing I'd like to call the "Top Down Racing Motorsport Catalog", it's a side project where I dump my WIPs that represents a particular era of motorsport, mostly sports car racing. It's sort of a visual "progress tracker" but with a proper "background story", gameplay rules, and accompanying tracks to go with each era represented. As you could guess, this is literally a project for Ultimate Racing 2D 2. Currently it's centered on 1990s which is basically the golden era for sports car racing at that time, and the starting point since most of my race cars are from that era.
On a Discord server I'm in, someone dropped a screenshot of a website. It is a story website (either a fiction or a fan fiction) with a simple interface, with the left side being the navigation for both the website and the chapter, something resembling the Chapter view from my catalog. From here, I want to make something like that (read: the catalog) and I had to scourge for website builders, but every builder felt like it had too much clutter for just one simple task, so the road leads to one trusted tool: Blogger. This is where I made use of my secondary "template test" page from years past (whose purpose was to be a template testbed for my current blog), and the template work somehow snowballed to a new post idea signifying another of my return after a while. The template for what would be the catalog for my top down racing content is ready and it'll go online as long as I could finish one section of the content.
As for this blog, starting over with a new blog is not on the cards despite thoughts of doing so, especially with how important digital preservation is in this dire times. I want my newer audiences to discover what I've done since the first time I opened this blog, although they'd still wonder if some would have a recent continuity. With that said, expect a radical change in the design. I'm aiming for the new design to be closer to the upcoming catalog, while simplifying the navigation. A new set of topics will follow too, mostly giving continuity of what disciplines I did per my posts, with new ones also coming in. Hopefully this gives me enough drive to post more here.
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